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Weed and Anorexia

I hate the fact that (some) people think I’m an addict,stoner, etc. And I’m too ashamed to explain just how much cannabis helps me.

Am I a daily user? Yes. Am I an advocate for cannabis? Absolutely. Do I have internalized stigma surrounding my cannabis use despite having medical/professional recommendations to do so? Also yes.

I originally began using cannabis for my insomnia. It has been a huge help with that. I used to be on a ridiculous amount of medication for sleep from a young age, and I am so thankful to have something that eases my insomnia without drugging me up.

But another huge benefit to cannabis is the fact that I CAN eat when I use it. I don’t turn into some stereotypical stoner with the munchies, but I AM able to recognize I don’t eat enough and to have sometimes a snack or a meal without the physical discomfort, and allows me to manage the psychological discomfort as well.

Its not a fix, it doesn’t make me suddenly able to maintain my weight. I know I need to be able to eat without cannabis, and I do. Weed just makes it a little easier. It’s slowing down the weight loss. Its letting me manage just a little better.

And I find it incredibly shameful to tell people that I smoke because I can’t eat and sleep. I can’t manage basic physiological functioning, so I resort to a substance. However, I would still prefer cannabis to the cocktail of pharmaceutical drugs they would have me on instead. And, cannabis is legal. I’m doing nothing wrong, but it still feels shameful.

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Sometimes I forget this isn’t normal

satanicblowjobs:

PLEASE REBLOG if you (male or female) believe it is perfectly okay and natural for a guy of any age to cry

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thinflamingo:

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drkchocolate-and-slfdustruction:

Some good old hearty Ana Advice💖💖💖

PLEASE I am in no way endorsing eating disorders. This is just list of a few things that I’ve learnt and that’s helped me through this war. So, with formalities over, let’s begin with the fun stuff:

1. Wash your hands regularly. Your immune system is already in panic mode. There’s no need for unnecessary germs. Gross.
2. BIG breakfast. MEDium lunch. small dinner. T R U S T me.
3. Zombies aren’t really gorgeous unless you know, that’s your kink or whatever, so get some zzzzz.
4. Invest in oils and skincare because boiii you’re going to need it.
5. H2O my friends. H2O. It’s zero calories and fills you up. Live off it.
6. Research some ED symptoms. Now you know what NOT to do infront of family and friends.
7. I have a set of face masks and my favourite perfume that I may only use on the day I hit a goal weight. This motivates me to lose more, quicker.
8. Acknowledge your victories. Every single one. Not only will you feel good and more motivated, but your brain will hook onto the feeling of praise and will want to experience it again.
9. This is quite a popular one, but keep a stack of magazines in your room, one magazine per pound you want to lose. Take one off everytime you lose a pound, add one of you gain. Watch that bitch shrink.
10. If you have snacks in your room or live alone, put sticky notes on the food packages with the amount of calories. When you want to eat it the consequences are staring you in the face before you even open the damn thing.

Please take care of yourself. You want to be alive and skinny, not dead and skinny.

Stay strong, we’re all in this together!!💖💖💖

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dietcokeandme:

I need some blogs to follow.

Please reblog if 3 or more of the following applies to you.

- lives with parents

- is 16+ (must)

- suffers from binge eating at times

- is at least 20 lbs / 10 kg from their ugw

- is a vegetarian / vegan

- is still at a healthy bmi

- loves to send and answer asks

Stay safe my loves. You can always dm me or send an ask.

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morbidsnarls:

wearetheforgotten:

becomingweightless:

real people ✨

@thinspoanorexic 5’10”

115lbs - 16.5bmi

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@zerozerokcal 5’8”

101lbs - 15.4bmi

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@lildaisy-baby 5’3”

130lbs - 23.0bmi

105lbs - 18.6bmi

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@morbidsnarl 5’7”

115lbs - 18.0bmi

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@alookatmythoughts 5’7”

106lbs - 16.6bmi

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@weighlessflower 5’3”

93lbs - 16.5bmi

🖤🖤🖤

i’m actually the last one 😅

lunarnight:

Disclaimer: Most of these behaviors and thoughts are due to my ED and it does not necessarily mean that I voluntarily think or act like this.

Reblog if any apply to you:

- watching “fat people eating compilations” to trigger myself

- bingeing on zero calorie recipe foods

- walking back and forth in my room so that I’ll burn calories

- genuinely finding ED memes hilarious and relatable 

- subconsciously hoping that I’ll become skinnier than all of my friends

- watching nearly every episode of supersize vs. superskinny 

- feeling accomplished when I get headaches that are due to lack of nutrients and food

- scrolling through thinspo for hours in a day

- putting my exercise routine above most responsibilities (I’ll sometimes exercise for like 3-4 hours a day even though I don’t have the time)

I probably have many more but these are the most consistent ones tbh :p

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lildaisy-baby:

xxlittleblueflowerxx:

featherweight-anxiety:

lildaisy-baby:

Me At 136…

130…

126…

105…

102…

this is so inspiring 😭😍

💛Sunshine💛

I had no Idea this would get so many notes

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